In May 2026, we found out we lost our precious baby at 15 weeks pregnant. After having three healthy boys and a smooth first trimester this pregnancy, hearing the words “I’m sorry. I’m not seeing any fetal heart tones” was a total shock. How could this be happening to us? Babies aren’t supposed to die. Especially after the first trimester. Now suddenly our world had changed. We were faced with decisions we thought we’d never have to make and questions we thought we would never have to ask. It was the most heartbreaking thing we’d ever experienced.

Because of my medical history, a D&C was recommended and we agreed. It was a traumatic experience, but thankfully the physical recovery was okay. After the procedure was complete, the reality set in. There would be no baby coming home. And that night the questions began to pour in: Is God still good when my baby died? Is he in control? Did he cause it or allow it? How is this good? I really didn’t know the answers in that moment. I was just overcome by the grief of it all.

It was recommended to me that we name our baby. So I searched for a name. I wanted a name that declared God is Sovereign, but I couldn’t find the perfect one. As I searched Google, I came across the name Amos which means “carried by God.” And Amos 3:7 says this: “Indeed the Sovereign Lord never does anything until he reveals his plans to his servants the prophets.” There it was—tucked right in the little book of Amos.

I loved the name Amos because I pictured Jesus holding my sweet baby boy. And it was also my prayer that Jesus would carry me and my family through even when I couldn’t see a way.

As we grieved and processed this loss, the questions overflowed. As a Christian believing that life begins at conception, there seemed to be a disconnect in the belief of the beginning of life and the care of moms who experience miscarriage. Why do we strongly support pro-life causes, but then fail to support those who lose these little lives even at the earliest stages?

God began to form in my heart a way to support moms in the loss of their babies even at the earliest stages, so in honor of Amos and being carried by our Sovereign God, Carried Collective was born.

— Meagan Robertson, Founder